I did everything I could to keep her, as well as myself healthy! I started taking a prenatal vitamin right away, as well as eating healthier, and exercising a lot more. I wanted to take the best care of her as I could, even before she got here! It all paid off too! I only gained 16 pounds and she was a healthy 7 lb 7 oz baby at 40 weeks and 6 days when I had her!
I have never been so scared of anything in my life, as I was the whole time I was pregnant. Every day I thought, "Is she okay in there? Am I doing everything right? Is she going to be healthy?" Along with about a million other thoughts about my little baby girl. A lot of nights I would just cry and cry worrying about her. I just wanted the best for her.
I was a terrible pregnant women! Not that I was very moody...well no more than normal...but I was emotional...about EVERYTHING! You could look at me wrong and I would start crying. You could say "Hi!" and I would cry. I would cry because I would cry!! ??? Yeah. It was that bad. I even remember crying one time because I never got morning sickness! WHAT? Yep, you heard me. I was afraid something was wrong because I wasn't puking my guts out everyday! Go figure! That's what hormones will do to you! Other than that I had an easy pregnancy.
Well, easy until the last month. I swear that month went by three times as slow as the previous months had! Every day I woke up hoping I would go into labor! Everyone kept telling me I would have her early since she was my first baby! One week passes, nothing. Two weeks pass, nothing. Week 3, nuh uhh. Week 4, my due date!!? Nope. Nada. Nothing. hmph! The last week had to have been the longest of them all! I had my induction date set for Friday, September 3rd, and after that terribly long week, still no baby! Finally after 26 long hours of labor, my baby girl came.
Kaidence Lee-Raine. 7 lbs 7 oz. 21 inches long. Perfection. She was the most beautiful thing I have ever seen in my life. She had the cutest little nose and the longest little toes. She was absolutely perfect! I remember bawling tears of joy as Brandon cut the umbilical cord and they laid her in my arms. I have never been as happy as I was that second! She was worth every second of labor, every ounce of pain that I went through. I would do it all again, just for her!
I absolutely LOVE being a mommy! I love looking down at her and seeing my nose on her cute little face. I love looking at her and seeing Brandon in her. I love the cute little facial expressions she gives me. I love that little sigh she lets out when she is done eating. I love that little fussing noise she makes when she gets frustrated. I love when she sticks her little tounge out and strains to make a coo come out. I love looking down at her when she is asleep on my chest. I love when she looks at me while she is eating. I love that when I stick my tounge out at her, she tries to stick hers out as well. I love when I give her kisses she makes her mouth into an oval, like she is trying to make kissy lips back. I love that she calms down when I sing to her. I love everything!
Brandon told me the other day that I was amazing because I knew exactly what to do when she gets fussy or cries. But the truth is, I have no idea what I am doing. I never took a how-to-be-a-mommy class. I just do what feels natural... I think it all comes with becoming a mommy. I also think Brandon is the amazing one. I love that underneath that tough guy front is a daddy. Everytime I hear him baby talk to her it melts my heart. I love to just sit back and listen to him talk to her like he has been a daddy forever. It brings a smile to my face everytime I see him admiring her. He is so amazing with her. A natural daddy. An amazing daddy. The best daddy.
I love them. My family. My own little family. *Sigh*. The joy in my life right now, is just so much to take in. I have an amazing boyfriend and a beautiful daughter. I would be selfish to ask for any more. They are all I need. I love you, Brandon and Kaidebug!
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